william tan marathon

not bad leh. he actually did it. damn strong will power. went church, went home, changed then zhao. my class was slotted for 3 - 330. tried running for half an hr nonstop. got into rhythm. then stopped at abt 23 mins to see someone cramping. then my eczema killed me. scratched.made the fatal mistake of not bringing towel to wipe away sweat off legs. paid for it. one chinese teacher running told me"bu yao zai pa le, ni kan, you xue le"

looked at me legs. omg. and when i say omg, u noe how serious it is. yup. lots of blood. woops. couldnt run. so i walked finished tt round. noe fudge is rather sensitive to blood, so showed it to him. he was like... YUCKS!!!. haha. then went and bouhgt some drinks. etc etc.

at the end stuck wif geoff and mark goh. not a very gd grp to be wif, cos they were always looking and discussing abt za bos. at one point mark actually wanted to make a move. he didnt. shag. wanted to see him make a fool of himself. darn.

bq

just gg thru wat happened yesterday for bq. went to sch, mugged, quized and had singspiration. yup. then went there. created some crappy songs on the bus. one goes liddat:

its raining its pouring
bq is coming
we'll pwn vs and woop their ass
and everyone noes we're cuming

lol. so we reached sss and had briefing, indoor, etc. diao. then outdoor. easy la. distance covered was much shorter than our mock. qns were like, bai chi? only one where zach's and joel's team scrwed up. using a some pingpong balls joined together, formed a pyramid of side 4 ping pong balls. yup. tt one t3h math genius *ego* knew, so our team cleared it, duh.

tie break. sigh. 20 teams went down. 1st one 20 simple qns in 8 mins. ok. next one totally siao. 10 t and f qns in 30 sec. then one guy came in and said "u only have 15 sec left" WHEN WE HAVE NOT STARTED. lol...

results. j team got 3rd. 2nd coy got 1st again. some ppl disappointed. sigh. call it sixth sense if u like, i knew we wont have won. sigh. damn crap lah. me not disappointed. cos me noes we tried our best and i was prepared for it anyway. sigh...

went back to sch. ms tang damn kind. bought 10 pizzas. THX, MA'AM!!! yay. then played basketball until damn late. my mum called and asked what i was doing, rather pissed. tehn i realised i forgot to call her. woops. then went home. yay

angsting

grr... blogging after so long. its like, bq is murdering me, re is pressing me flat, and so many things. just missed english lesson today, and my fahter recieved a call from mad maas. so did more than half of the parents in the class. lol. just dying...

quiz time

http://colorgenics.com/sps/index.cfm

some damn pro quiz. freaking accurate:


You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfillment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realize the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

You are feeling under considerable pressure and you are being forced to make concessions. You are not particularly happy with this state of affairs but you feel that you have no alternative. If you were to force issues you would be left out or completely ignored by one and all.

The stress and tension that you are experiencing at this time is perhaps due to your inability to achieve security and appreciation from those closest to you. This is resulting in considerable pressures. You find the situation as it stands most frustrating. You are the sort of person that would like to experience all and everything very intensely but unfortunately you are not receiving the warmth and understanding that you feel you are entitled to. Matters are not going too well. You seek a sympathetic ear but it is not forthcoming. This situation is extremely nerve-racking - and what is more humiliating is that no-one seems to care and you are powerless to do anything about it.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavors and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

happy weekend...

just went for smo yesterday. as i expected, i answered t3h first qn then spent the rest of the 2.5 hrs staring at the other 3 qns. lol. nvm. didn’t expect to do well anyway. but tt place quite comfortable lah. if it wasn’t a competition i would have fallen asleep liao.

discovered my bq team after the comp. its like, every time im in the youngest team. hexor. me, daryl, nat, kieran, derwin. gd team. yes. lets do it!!!

then went chs chalet. after like how long never see my ex-teachers liao. damn fun. went there with a lot of $$ in my pocket, the usual chs chalet rule, and came back with even more. xD. lol. and i finally learned how to play mahjong properly! yay. wan tong xiao last nite. damn fun. three flowers in a row, then zi mo. pro. but mahjong no money lah. all too n00b liao.

the best jack ever. go into the bushes to find a ball, cos its too dark, take out handfone cover and shine. found ball, retrieved, walk back, put back cover. then oops. where r the keys? go back there, with only the pathetic light of a handfone and comb the area knowing very well tt one guy just got bitten by ONE ant until he bled, and u r wearing sandals. oops.

yupz. finally distressed from all my troubles. when i came back, discovered i no more was worried abt bq and handover, but maybe cos i was half asleep. zzz….

learning to relax

arrgghh.. so many thigns on my mind now... bq, smo, handover. yup. think i sorta scrweed up my interview yesterday. its like... freaky. sort of ans very poorly to some qns. now talking to a few batchmates, wont say who, feeling even more confused. dotz.

still got hw, have to mug for 2 comps. its like, gg. cant be bothered to start mugging for smo and its like, in 6 days? sigh. really gg to spend the 3 hrs in the lt looking at the birds, as sean teck puts it. diao.

inspired by a song at church today. realised that only god can help me fill up the hole tts inside me:

here i am, standing in front of u
a broken heart, an empty cup
here i am and i'm asking of u
take me apart
fill me up

i come to u an empty soul
to the brim fill me up
take my life and make me whole
pour it til it overflows

my cup runneth over