dunno y. recently just choking with worries. fine. not recently. just. within the psat 3 hours just had some stupid anxiety attack. worrying abt some stuff. abt cashflow, abt work, abt o lvls, abt this, abt that. lolz. guess it will go off very soon. yeah. shldnt last very long lahz. just made a mental note to pray. yup. msut pray abt it.

just spent the last three days constructively. friday with terence's church rally. yesterday with the guys mugging together. today in my church. although got a lot of work but still feeling very fulfilled. yup.

dunno lahz. just feel rather disappointed in some ppl. yeah. just discovered sth abt some guy. its like, wth? u r in such a position and until recently then i found out that u r actually a ____? dunno wad to say lahz. at first got quite a lot of respect for him. then i found that out abt him, my respect just... not really a lot now lahz. another guy, his msn nick talking abt sth. thought it was talking abt subject A. then appeared that he was talking abt subject B. dunno lahz. just feel like, strange? esp this happened at such a time. initially felt rather happy for him. but after found out that he was actually talking abt subject B, just felt so disappointed. and i thought still got hope. sighz. musnt give up hope. must push on, i guess.

dunno lahz. if life is a sin curve, how come im meeting so much more 270s than 90s?