Acts 2:4

30th sep 2005. must rmb this day. now trying to finish this now so tt i can do this when my memory is still vivid and so i have a record of what happened. after all, this is will only happen once in my lifetime. when the prescence of the Spirit is so strong.

yupz. today was an uneventful day. then went cell after sch. in the seminar rm. yupz. so we started off wif singspiration and prayer. yups. then the Spirit was present in teh room. we could feel it. yup. ppl starting to cry. first shawn, then max. i also felt very touched lor. was praying very hard, just praying for forgiveness, prayed for my frens, my family, thanked God for everything tt he had done in my life. was so touched tt i almost started crying, whihc was a very big step for me as i'm very unemotional. yupz. bq ppl shld noe. i didnt shed a single tear at both bqs. dunno y today so touched lah. just thanked God for forgiving me countless of times, even though i keep on repeating my sins again and agian. realised there tt God's love is truly unconditional and infinite. i hv been sinning for 15 yrs of my life and not once has God forsaken me, but instead has given me more and more strength, and more blessing.

then max started being very emotional, so i joined joash to pray for him. was just praying and praying. prayed for blessings upon him, prayed for him to be able to get on well wif his family regarding what he has chosen, prayed for God to guide him. so after praying for so long, i suddenly felt like praying for myself again. so i continued praying, this time feeling the goosebumps and all tt. yup. then terrence's cell grp leader laid her hands on me and started praying for me.

so i dun rmb when, but after some time i started shaking and trembling, very lightly at the start. continued until some point in tiem when she said,"i can sense tt God is trying to fill u up. continue praying and ask for Him to come". sth liddat. so i prayed, my tremblings getting stronger. then joash and shawn (i think) laid their hands on me and started praying.

thank God they were there to help me and guide me as i went thru this. else i will feel very confused, dunno what to do and just may break out of it. so gradually i felt my whole body becoming very numb with all the shaking, esp in my knees and hands. then sort of i felt my body being controlled. yupz. then i recieved prompting, "He is trying to give u a tongue. dun be afraid. just say what He prompts u to do." so i prayed and i prayed, thanking God over and over again. then, my jaw became very numb and i felt it slowly opening. it was like, i could feel my body but wasnt in control of my body. my mouth opened and i was making some noise. some kind of roaring. think i was even screeching at times. then i sort of recieved the syllable 'ahhh..' then i just kept on making the sound and very gradually i got another syllable.

Thank God.

yup. so after all that, after recieving my first word in tongue, i continued in the Spirit for quite a long time, just praising the Lord. my body was still shaking and i didnt hv control of my body yet. then it slowly went away, and i felt the shaking stop. but my fingers were still held in tt position by a very strong force, like a magnet. when i regained control of my hands, opened my eyes. then i was like:
"OUCH!"

imagine ur head bowed, ur whole body in some kind of guai lan position for goodness noes how long, almost not moving, just shaking like mad. u already knew tt ur body was aching, esp ur neck, but sort of like didnt feel it earlier. then u wake up.

staggered to a chair, sat down, and streched my neck. after i rested enuf, we discussed on what happened today. learned abt what i shld do when i pray and how to further my improve my tongue. yup.

really, today was the time when i really felt the Spirit super strong. only so few ppl in the Seminar Room, and yet such a stong prescence. now i noe tt God really exists and is in control of everything. i could just feel it when He took control of my body. very strong and powerful feeling..

feel very relieved now. like all my sins r completely forgiven, all of my troubles gone. but i still cant recall what my first word was!!!!! only received one word and i forgot it. argh... must try to get it. pray. yup.

brain deadness

yesh. lamzy has reached a new state of brian deadness... when cts is 15 days away. good game. argh.... its like, me ish sleeping thru all teh physics lessons. i think et is pissed off at me. like, always nodding off in class this wk. lol. today got visitors, and i was nodding off (hey, i did my best to stay awake, k?) then she come to me and whisper:' there are visitors here' lol.

math class also. doing corrections for the func. assign,, and i didnt understand a word of it. lol. felt so blur and confused thru the whole lesson. luckily i didnt hv any corrections to do, or else good game liao.

lamzy has decided ot sign up for ldp. yesh. lamzy shall go and buaya lead. yups. tt is, if i get in. lol.

t3h stupid staff of ica. go make passport today, and guess wat? almost fainted when i saw the confirmation slip. buddhist sia. lol. luckily i saw it, else i would be branded as a buddha for the remianing yrs until i get a new one. come to think of it, if i see tt cock on my ic, i would just break it and get the new one. gg.

promethuem day

lol. hall today. sighz. watching another grp of leaders take over. but this tiem its different. its us. at last. sigh. still rmb one yr ago, when i was just siting there in the hall, and i was liek thinking: i will go up there nxt yr. haha. so it didnt come true.

pwnage lah. 5 out of 6 ug ccals r from gep. lol. sighz. dunno wat to say lah.

so much to say. so many things gg on now. so many relationships gg cold. but can i mention any? no. sigh. i feel burdened...

i hv given up on trying to give a title to my posts lah. no pt anyway.

sigh. today just got pissed off by someone over sth. shall not reveal much abt wat the thing is abt. then went cell. must really thank God for giving me help whenever im in the dumps. topic of cell today was qt, where we did abt do not worry. realised tt all my probs were trival, and to think so much abt them would be an insult to God. yupz. feel much better liao.

hmm... when a certain grp of ppl kneel down for worship, get up, they see one guy still kneeling on the floor. gives him the benefit fo the doubt, tt he is praying. wait. a few mins. tap, tap. terrence accidentally drops a coin on the WOODEN floor next to him. no response. do u believe that guy is still praying? but quite interesting. how do u sleep in tt position? not like its very comfortable liddat... (hint: he's rather short)

does anybody hv the html for putting music on webby? i want to put l33t music on this thing, but dunno hwo to leh. if u noe how to, pls tell me. thx. :P

another sian day...

sighz. another sian day in my calendar. wait a min, my days r all sian. lol. darn stupid lah. bio test and i didnt study. forgot. lol. when i had so much free time in the weekend.

argh... i did sth wrong today. i looked at my bdae present! i was damn bored b4 bio class, so i just went and opened geoff's shoe bag, trying to kope his coy t shirt. saw a life bookshop plasitc bag. i was like. hmm... life bookshop in 60th means present and tt means... oops.

think i did ok for my bio quiz lah. although seeeng teck say i screwed up second last qn. damn smart sia. nvm. i got higher than u for smo 1st round. HAHA. loser.

lol. parade was like... lol. see some sqs do their pt damn fast, still got time to play fire and ice, while my sq die like siao. nvm. we put in more effort than u guys. at least we got high attendance. nvm. SQ 2 GO!!!!

祝我生日快乐　温岚

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁

一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难,想切割切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点

生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了
寂寞亮了

生日快乐
泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切

还爱你的一点恨
还要时间
才能平衡
热恋伤痕
画面重生
祝我生日快乐

dunno y i choose such a depressing song... just feel like it lah, i guess. hehe. at least the title reflects my thoughts. xD. but its a rather nice song

yeah, i noe im not updating on a frequent basis, but if sth tmr goes rite, then i shld be able to blog frequently. :D

day 4

most ppl overslept. at the headcount in the lobby, we kenna abt 10 % of ppl still in bed. claps. went back to singapore. anything to say abt this day? not much. lol.

day 3

went to some forest research place. quite interesting. then the guide told us, if we see a tiger, scream cos they will think we r more pro than them. didnt see one. damn sad. got me and josh ang. see our l33t screaming skills. canopy walk was fun. screamed my way thru. walked on to the platform, screamed. then when joel was shaking the platform, i encouraged him to shake some more wif a promise of singing my heart will go on. true enuf, he shook the boards even harder. thus, i gave him my best rendition of the song, which echoed thru the trees. then i hear a whistle. look down, see the tour guide looking at me, whistle in his mouth. wtf. wat humiliation.

afternoon went this pewter factory. pewter is damn ex. one mug cost over 100 rm. their chamberpots cost like 5000rm. lol. ever bought a chess set for 4000 rm made of pewter?

went seaside village. saw the conditions there. wondered how the fong pro singers come from there. its like… nvm. had to abstain from most of dinner cos of my skin. sad. then watched fireflies. damn interesting. its like, god made each one of these creatures, every one of them, whether it has longer wings, less bright and everything. He will make each one of them die when its time. each one of them individually has its own deathbed, and even though they may nto be seen by humans, they contribute to the whole ecosystem. each light in the trees is special in each way. no two of them are alike. and there r like, a million of them in the world, and god has given each its individuality. and tts only one animal out of how many. hallelujah.

go back hotel, no lights out. so went bowl until 2, see those hardcores playing scrabble in my room when i return, stop them and go and sleep at 3. lol.

day 2

breakfast. then left for the charcoal kiln. rather interesting. but u shld see the sauna there. tt was like… hot. no other word for it. step inside, ouch. u breathe in hot air. u feel hot air. u walk out as hot as someone who has a fever. then went to some stupid nature reserve. we were like, wow. msia got coms wif xp. then those n00bs didn’t even press the slide show button when using ppt. they were like, presenting by scrolling from slide to slide until we kindly informed them tt they can click on slide show. damn stupid. it was like, lol.

went visit some cave. on the way see those two scrabble hardcores play all the way. lol. fell asleep on the bus wif k ge shu bu qing in my ear. i realized the pro effects of lian ai da ren. the moment it played, i woke up. too pro liao. but nvm. we were almost there by tt time so not too much sleep lost. go inside the cave, got hit by a slight height phobia. then see the wonderful cave. its rather pro. cool and nice.

went to the hotel, then go room wif guo cong. shop. wah. didn’t hv enuf time to go find much. cds over there r not tt much cheaper than here. lol. actually wanted to buy ji
n sha’s kong qi. (the one who sang bei feng chui guo de xia tian, u n00bs) but then decided not to. msia so advanced, they still sell cassettes of the latest albums in carrefour. darn pro.

first day

lol. damn laggy, but im finally blogging abt the malaysian trip. yeah. but shall i first say tt it is not very exciting? so prepare a pillow and get ready to sleep…

lalala. went to sch at 6. had to wake at 5. lol. faced the prospect of facing fong for 4 days. damn sian. departed at 6 sth. maoling damn pro. appear when we were boarding the bus. went thru immigration, damn surprised at the fact tt my hillsong cd didnt get koped for religious purposes. my arrival card was like, address in malaysia, ipoh kl. then the officer was like, u hv any knowledge of msia geog. hey. fong asked me to write tt, k? y dun u go and find her. ouch. tt sounds very wrong.

on the bus. got this gay guide wif flowery shirt. yeah. just like ocj. went yong peng. bought only an icecream cone. WHY??? y didn’t i buy a pirated cd(s)??? damn stupid. dun hv enuf time. those ppl who planned the trip. noe there is a pirated cd shop there dun give us more time. aiyoh. then the damn long and sian bus ride. 2.5 hrs to lunch, 2.5 hrs to shopping mall, 1 hr to home, then they tell us we only have one hour cos we reached there at 6, the time we were supposed to leave. oops. 1 hr to lunch and .5 hr to hotel. damn sian. sapped so much of my cd player’s battery.

lunchtime. interesting restaurant. their cold water was so freezing tt ligay burnt his tongue drinking it. damn pro.

u noe wat happens when u mix lamzy’s cd player, nelson’s cd, ziguang’s speakers and lamzy’s vocals? the wonderful band made up of the 3 grp leaders produces a perfect rendition of moi heart will go on. damn pro. it was like, everybody enjoyed it so well. clap clap. too pro liao.

tt royce arh.. go and horny on the bus. pretend to sleep and the head fall near my groin area, then move head up and down. cunning cock. everybody laughing like siao. and me? cannot move cos if i get up, his head will collide wif.. er hm.

white chicks is damn stupid. watched it in the bus. esp the part when they stripped those girls, thinking they were men. damn farny. but i was like, sitting at the back and sound system was rather screwed, so didnt enjoy the show tt well. didnt get the storyline. lol.

my hotel room was facing mad maas and fk’s rm! wtf. damn stupid. open my door, see them. wah liao. the best was when i when around screaming in the lobby cos i suddenly felt like it, then they heard it. lol.